The Corona Isolation Diary - Day 291

 

It has been almost 10 months since Corona happened and Lockdown occurred and life became unrecognisable. One is almost used to this "new normal" by now. I haven't been to a single adda, gone out for a single cup of coffee, or seen any friends face to face in this entire time. just a couple of video calls with the Univ gang, and endless work meetings is all the exposure I have to any face other than those at home. Mentally, where I am is beyond description or explanation, and not really worth the time to try to expand. I've given up thinking about it, particularly since there is absolutely nothing i can do about it until things change drastically. 

Money is a huge issue, and another where there is nothing to be done until a miracle happens. Credit card dues are piling up, loans are not being serviced as one wishes, insurance is gone, lapsed without timely premium payments. one more reason I refuse to think of the physical symptoms right now, because I simply do not have the money or the insurance to deal with whatever ails me. 

That's the bad stuff. some good stuff is happening as well... 

Picked up the pencils again, after some 23 years, from sheer boredom, and while the first few attempts were pretty pathetic, and I'm still nowhere near the quality I had managed to get to way back in the past, at least it is something to do where the results are not totally a waste of time.

But the biggest gain from this time of self isolation and social distancing is how much time and attention has gone into the relationship with monkey. So much quality time has been spent, so much cuddling and kisshies have been dispensed, so many "I love you"s said. At least one is assured now that when one is gone, of all the things monkey wonders, "did mamma love me" will never be one. There can now not be the slightest doubt on that front. 

All the homebound quality time has also allowed for some serious heavy duty "talk time". Another major plus.